The Future is here!!!!

It's been too long since I've written. Since I last wrote we did get a wonderful job. The one I kept writing and wondering about. The Lord really seemed to open the doors and almost kick us through them. I am working now, but it's great. I actually feel like I'm using the gifts God has for me. Now, along with that, there are challenges. I'm putting tons of pressure on myself for every little thing. I really need to relax and let the Lord work though me. There are also so many things to get done. I'm still very easily overwhelmed. Just little things like unpacking the house, getting it cleaned, finding time to pick music, trying to pick the "perfect" songs, figuring out the future of the music program here, figuring out what I want to wear everyday. Yeah, that overwhelms me (and that's a whole nother post I'll worry about later).

I must admit, that as much as I loved the closeness, trust and full reliance with God I've had the last few months has been insanely wonderful, it is a relief to have a paycheck coming in. I'm striving for that same closeness, trust and full reliance, but it's really easy to slip back. Luckily, now I'm leaning on God in a different way. He's provided the job, home and money (and honestly, the stress level has dropped dramatically), but now it's relying on Him for leading others in worship. Realizing it's all about Him and not my voice that still cracks all the time or the songs the congregation doesn't know. It's a new aspect in my walk with Him. I really have to remember and remind myself of that now.

On a side note, if you haven't checked out Laura Story's song Blessings. You HAVE to! ASAP... go now!! This is the best song I've heard in a very long time. I just completely love it and can't wait for the track to come out. It really speaks to me, even though we've come out of that valley now, I know there are more to come. I hope it speaks to you in a powerful way as well.