Ok, Chris! Just for you.
I'm not a big change person. I like to plan and I like knowing the plan. In college, every Monday morning I would write down every hour of every day in the next week and what I was going to do that hour. And, for the most part, I kept the exact same schedule every week. I know... it might seem obsessive, but that's how I made it through the week. I was less stressed when I knew what was happening. Now that I'm older and a mom, I can't do that nearly as well. My kids are on a strict schedule~ not as bad as when Linley was a baby. She went to bed exactly at the same time every night and ate the EXACT time everyday... not even a minute different. Now, they eat within about 30 minutes of the exact time, go to bed within 30 minutes, but if something comes up, I'm more flexible about it. But life happens. Someone gets sick or I don't feel like doing what was planned or whatever. Plans change.
Some more changes are heading in my life in the future. Shocking, I know. There is always change and nothing I do can prevent that change. But, what I'm learning is that it isn't necessarily bad. I'm getting older... I'm 28... 28... That is so hard for me to admit. I still feel 18... not over halfway to 50, lol! I have a 2 year old who's going on 16 and a one year old who talks, walks and screams. Those changes aren't bad... well the screaming thing isn't all that good, but you get my point.
Most importantly, I'm learning that God allows the change and encourages it. In my case, change forces me to rely fully on Him. You say, aren't you supposed to be fully relying on Him anyway? Yes, I am, but yes I think I can do it myself sometimes (ok... so maybe more than sometimes, haha!). Also, I need to change my heart daily so I don't become stagnant in my walk with Him. I need to be constantly changing and getting closer to Him.
So to sum up my rambling that I'm pretending is a coherent blog post... Life changes... I can't change that... Grrr, lol! But God doesn't change and really that's all that matters
3 comments:
see you are a blogger. lol. good post i like it. change is never easy. but at least you try. lol
I like it...I think you should do it more! Sometimes...even if you don't have "anything to say" it's good to write anyway. Even the ramblings can touch somebody if God wants them to :)
Isn't rambling the biggest part of blogging? :) You're right. Change isn't always a bad thing. Sometimes the change is by choice, sometimes not, and sometimes it's a great way to realize, all over again, that God IS in control. I'm glad I'm not. Good job, Angie.
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